life in the fast lane

well hello again.

it’s been a little over 4 months since i’ve been here. over the course of those 4 months i’ve had a lot of time to self reflect – to focus on me and my physical, mental, and emotional well being. and, shit, it got real. i stripped down all these barriers [that i never knew i had] until i felt defenseless, vulnerable and naked. it wasn’t fun, nor easy. i’m not finished and, realistically, won’t ever be – self reflection and care is an ever evolving process that shouldn’t be taken lightly.

BUT let’s be real, it’s much easier to avoid those nagging little voices and jitters that can easily consume your entire day than face them head on. it’s easier to sweep things under the rug and forget about them. but when there’s no space under the rug, those forgotten “things” magically appear again while trying to hide the new things and it SUCKS. it can be a vicious cycle. it can consume your body, mind and entire being.

i’ve learned that during those times where you can’t quite get a freaking grip, you can rely on your people. find your people and stick to them like glue.

they’ll be there for you when it’s literally the most inconvenient time for them. if you want them to shut up and listen, they’ll do it. if you want them to give you advice, they’ll do it. and if you want to go to the bar and get drunk, they’ll do that too. 

THANK YOU to my people. these past couple of months i’ve learned that life isn’t always that much better in the fast lane. and i wouldn’t have learned that without them.


fall in vt. <3

i mean…. need i say more.


fall is one of my all time favorite seasons. and fall in vermont is on steroids. like awesome steroids.

a week or so ago, it seriously felt like fall here. enough that one morning we woke up to frost. yes, you heard me. frost. mother nature, i love you moving forward and all, but frost is a bit too quick.

apparently, mother nature heard my cry because she has warmed up nicely again. high 60s and sunny these past few days. perfect for spending all my time outside.

at least now, i’ll be prepared for when she cools down again. can’t wait to snap some more pics during all my fall adventures.

photo 2battery park, burlington – soon, these trees will be a blend of gorgeous reds, yellows and oranges.

photo 4

driving home from work one evening. and yes, i was stopped when i took the picture.

photo 2

photo 3

our view from the top of mount philo state park on tuesday night. we’ll be back once the leaves have changed. it’ll be here before we know it!

photo 5

a candid (secret) photo i snapped of juergen and his younger brother.

note: the pink martinis. HA.

photo 3

and then this. because fall is made for flannels and my all time favorite jcrew wedges.

oh, and in case i haven’t told you all the big news…. i’ve made an appointment. an appointment to dye my hair.

like, WHOA. scared out of my mind.

for those of you unfamiliar with this topic, please refer to my indecisiveness post.

happy fall!