life in the fast lane

well hello again.


it’s been a little over 4 months since i’ve been here. over the course of those 4 months i’ve had a lot of time to self reflect – to focus on me and my physical, mental, and emotional well being. and, shit, it got real. i stripped down all these barriers [that i never knew i had] until i felt defenseless, vulnerable and naked. it wasn’t fun, nor easy. i’m not finished and, realistically, won’t ever be – self reflection and care is an ever evolving process that shouldn’t be taken lightly.

BUT let’s be real, it’s much easier to avoid those nagging little voices and jitters that can easily consume your entire day than face them head on. it’s easier to sweep things under the rug and forget about them. but when there’s no space under the rug, those forgotten “things” magically appear again while trying to hide the new things and it SUCKS. it can be a vicious cycle. it can consume your body, mind and entire being.


i’ve learned that during those times where you can’t quite get a freaking grip, you can rely on your people. find your people and stick to them like glue.

they’ll be there for you when it’s literally the most inconvenient time for them. if you want them to shut up and listen, they’ll do it. if you want them to give you advice, they’ll do it. and if you want to go to the bar and get drunk, they’ll do that too. 


THANK YOU to my people. these past couple of months i’ve learned that life isn’t always that much better in the fast lane. and i wouldn’t have learned that without them.

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three worthy things

coming at you from the comfort of my parent’s house in denver where it’s cold, snowy and i have a full cup of coffee –  i’m certainly not moving anywhere quickly.


last week i wrote about the trouble of taking care of your skin while flying. one of the biggest takeaways was the importance of a physical sunscreen. i mentioned wanting to try this specific product – and well, sephora was one of my first stops on this trip. the cream is supposed to help smooth out any sort of redness, acne and/or blemishes. it also brags about protecting against UV light and environmental pollution.

i’ve used it every day this week and i’m obsessed. to be honest, i’ve always been self conscious of my skin – i’ve used multiple products to even out my hyper-pigmentation or new blemish [yes, i’m 28 and still get acne. eye roll.] but with the addition of this product, i can honestly eliminate most of the others i had been using. it smooths out my skin without looking fake and makes my morning routine much easier. one thing i’m still learning is the appropriate amount of moisturizer to put on before – my skin is adjusting to the dry climate in denver and it needs a bit more lovin’.

head to sephora and get yourself some of this. ask for a sample which they will happily give you or if you’re ready to jump aboard it comes in two different sizes. let me know your thoughts!


i’ve found some really amazing prints and artwork as of recently. i’m looking for some new artwork for my living room – haven’t figured out what one [or ones] will be the winners. votes?

never half-ass two things
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last and final “thing” this week is going to be some of the amazing people i’ve had the opportunity to spend time with this week. grateful for the relationships i have with all of them. ❤ IMG_2364.jpg

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madeline, kirby, allie & i at jax 
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bluebird day with my dad
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nate & maria at the canteen
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snowiest day on the mountain
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alex, tiffany & i at the canteen
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allie & i at jax restaurant

happy saturday!

 

 

here, but hiding.

hi, adison here. remember me? i’ve been here, but hiding.

these recent life changes hit me like a ton of bricks. literally any and all emotions you could think of, i’ve felt – sad, lonely, confused, pissed, abandoned… the list could certainly go on. i was talking to a friend about these said emotions early on and he told me to “write about it”. so i’ve been writing, post after post and saving them as drafts because i’ve been feeling too vulnerable to share those publicly. so, 27 drafts later, i think i’m ready to share one of my most recent drafts.-

-change comes in many shapes and sizes. it can be as little as changing nail polish from red to pink, or as big as a life altering break up, divorce or death of a loved one.

i didn’t understand the change and, stupidly, i was expecting time to freeze. some days, it felt frozen, and i would dwell on this or that and what could’ve gone differently and other days i watched time fly by surprised that i had made it through the day so quickly.

 i’ve found that in order to deal with the change you have to be able to look back on what once was, how to appreciate it for the beauty and amazing-ness while also, understanding that life will go on without you if you don’t keep up.

unfortunately, no two stories are the same and there isn’t a “how to deal with change” book for each and every scenario. [although it would make things much easier to have a bulleted “to-do” list when it comes to moving on…] so until that happens, we have to roll with the punches and struggle through it. one of the biggest lessons i learned is that you don’t have to struggle through it alone. it’s okay to be vulnerable. it’s okay to ask for help. it’s okay to “not feel like talking” one day and to open up and never stop talking the next day. people who have your back will literally drop everything just to listen to you, or sit there in silence with you, or go get drunk with you. [yes, that may have happened once or twice…] those are the people you want to be friends with. those are the people i aspire to be. i seriously got by “with a little help from my friends“. or a lot of help.

your friends are your friends for a reason – don’t be afraid to ask for help. they’ll be there for you. ❤


and at the end of the day, pull some motivation from the queen herself – elizabeth taylor. fullsizeoutput_168b.jpeg

 

christmas celebrations

now that my computer has officially dried out and turned back on (in case you didn’t see the latest instagram post, i spilled coffee all over my computer christmas eve and it’s been drying ever since) i’m back! keep your fingers crossed that it continues to work…. PLEASE!


we spent this past weekend celebrating christmas and spending some serious quality time with friends and family. my parents flew in on friday and we haven’t stopped eating/drinking/galavanting around the town since. here is a small glimpse into the past couple of days…

first stop we made was one of my mom’s all time favorite restaurants, tiny thai, a small local favorite that’s BYOB it’s a seriously  hard to beat. and their takeout is a good as the dine in – which certainly isn’t always the case!

after dinner we headed back to my house to begin our christmas eve tradition – the annual book swap.

growing up, we were always allowed to open one gift on christmas eve and 9 times out of 10, it was ususally pajamas. now that we’ve grown up a bit [who am i kidding, we haven’t grown up] we’ve tailored our tradition a bit.

a couple weeks before the holiday we draw names and pick who we buy a book for; it can be hard cover, paper back, an audiobook, e-book, or even a magazine subscription. we’ve only been doing it a couple of years but it’s one of my favorite parts of christmas.


the next morning we did the full christmas thing – stockings, coffee, mimosas, more coffee, cinnamon rolls, and gifts. fullsizeoutput_10f5

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pajamas and mimosas 

we relaxed most of the morning, went for a long walk, and prepared for some dinner guests that evening. tiffany definitely takes the cake for her cheese board skills. fullsizeoutput_1146


i had to work christmas day but luckily i was able to escape at 3:30 and head home for another night of dinner guests, drinks, and laughs.

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spreading merry around the hospital

after plenty of cocktails and far too much food we busted out the game of things. it was the first time i played it and it was hysterical. keep the wine flowing and you’ll certainly have a blast. img_3233

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this was the best we could do….

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yesterday we worked out, made a couple of returns and went to manchester by the sea. it was amazing. be sure to bring some tissues and show up earlier anticipated – the ENTIRE theater was full.

it was a fabulous weekend spent with amazing people and 2017 is creeping around the corner, can’t wait to see what the future holds – cheers!