here, but hiding.

hi, adison here. remember me? i’ve been here, but hiding.

these recent life changes hit me like a ton of bricks. literally any and all emotions you could think of, i’ve felt – sad, lonely, confused, pissed, abandoned… the list could certainly go on. i was talking to a friend about these said emotions early on and he told me to “write about it”. so i’ve been writing, post after post and saving them as drafts because i’ve been feeling too vulnerable to share those publicly. so, 27 drafts later, i think i’m ready to share one of my most recent drafts.-

-change comes in many shapes and sizes. it can be as little as changing nail polish from red to pink, or as big as a life altering break up, divorce or death of a loved one.

i didn’t understand the change and, stupidly, i was expecting time to freeze. some days, it felt frozen, and i would dwell on this or that and what could’ve gone differently and other days i watched time fly by surprised that i had made it through the day so quickly.

 i’ve found that in order to deal with the change you have to be able to look back on what once was, how to appreciate it for the beauty and amazing-ness while also, understanding that life will go on without you if you don’t keep up.

unfortunately, no two stories are the same and there isn’t a “how to deal with change” book for each and every scenario. [although it would make things much easier to have a bulleted “to-do” list when it comes to moving on…] so until that happens, we have to roll with the punches and struggle through it. one of the biggest lessons i learned is that you don’t have to struggle through it alone. it’s okay to be vulnerable. it’s okay to ask for help. it’s okay to “not feel like talking” one day and to open up and never stop talking the next day. people who have your back will literally drop everything just to listen to you, or sit there in silence with you, or go get drunk with you. [yes, that may have happened once or twice…] those are the people you want to be friends with. those are the people i aspire to be. i seriously got by “with a little help from my friends“. or a lot of help.

your friends are your friends for a reason – don’t be afraid to ask for help. they’ll be there for you. ❤


and at the end of the day, pull some motivation from the queen herself – elizabeth taylor. fullsizeoutput_168b.jpeg

 

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adversity training

during my college lacrosse years, my coach would always make us do something [usually terrible like sprints after a scrimmage or game] and tell us it was just “adversity training”. i will be the first to say that those moments certainly made me physically and mentally tougher. i’ve, unfortunately, hit a point in my life where i need to look back on those moments and pull all the toughness out and put it to use.  yet there’s no amount of training that will get you though a break up – especially one that you never saw coming. the point of this post isn’t to complain and wallow in my sorrows – it’s to highlight how amazing my friends and family have been this past week. between helping move out of my house in 24 hours notice, to letting me crash in their spare bedrooms or couches, to just being there to listen to me bitch, i couldn’t have gotten though it without them. ❤


moving forward i’ve created a list of a few things to make the most of this life i have here in burlington:

try something new every week. ie: a new recipe, new cocktail, new bar, new place to eat, new place to work out… i’m excited for this because it’s something to keep me mentally engaged and looking forward to the new item of the week.

send more snail mail. who doesn’t love getting a card in their mail box “just because”? i can say that nothing turns your day around like a “just thinking about you” card from a friend.

be confident in living/doing thing/being by myself. all through college i had roommates, i had roommates after college, and then i had a boyfriend for a roommate. i’ve never lived by myself. finding a one bedroom apartment within a weeks time was something i didn’t think was possible but somehow it worked out and i’m moving into my own apartment this friday. needless to say, i’m excited and terrified. it will certainly be something to get used to, but i’m up for the challenge. i’ll be sure to post some pics of the new digs.


cheers to the future. thanks for everyone who’s had my back – you know who you are. XO. especially this chic.IMG_0769.JPG

72 hours in burlington

i’ve been seriously overwhelmed with the process of moving (yes, we’re moving. to winooski. THIS saturaday, ah!) and attempting to learn everything there is about this new job of mine. oh and my mom came to visit. which came at a perfect time for a little mini-staycation. i’ll have lived in burlington for the last 9 years come august and my parents visit for holidays and typically one or two other times during the year. needless to say, we’ve done the “burlington tour” a time or two. this time when my mom came we made an explore different places in chittenden county. here’s a little recap of our weekend. and if you’ve never come to burlington before, here’s your go-to guide.


first activity was a cruise along the burlington bike path to the new north end. we didn’t make it to the causeway (as we couldn’t rely on mother nature to hold out) regardless, it was fun to go for a little spin. my parents still live in colorado and being the land-locked state that it is, my mom is always wanting to be by the water. it could’ve been a downpour and she would’ve had fun. 😀


next stop was citizen cider for a couple afternoon cocktails. it’s a great little place in the south end art district on pine street. i’m not a huge fan of the cider (only because i don’t love overly sweet drinks) but i certainly love their cocktails mixed with the ciders – particularly, the cold fashioned. the poutine from the snack menu is insanely good. be sure to check out their menu for their weekly specials!


IMG_0652we ventured out to shelburne inn for breakfast sunday morning. if there’s one place you shouldn’t miss when you’re here, this is it. it’s seriously gorgeous at any time of the year. while only open during the warm months (half of spring, summer and early fall) that certainly doesn’t mean you can’t or shouldn’t check it out in the winter. if you don’t go for a meal, that’s fine too. park at the front gate and walk along the grounds back towards the inn or drive and park at the inn to explore from there. IMG_0653


summer in burlington isn’t complete without spending a couple of hours at a local berry farm. we picked raspberries and strawberries at sam mazza’s farm in colchester with the intention of using them for some sort of baked good – we failed at baking [didn’t even start the process…] i’ve been to a couple different farms and personally have no strong feelings towards one over another, just get to one before the season is over. Processed with VSCO with c1 preset


growing up we could always find my mom in her garden up to her elbows in dirt. nothing has changed now that we’re officially “up” she still loves to spend her time tending to the flowers. as kids, we would gripe and moan when she took us to the nursery because we knew we’d be there for at least 2 hours. you can imagine her surprise when i was telling her how amazing this nursery in colchester was. i figured that she had to see the place in person. we weren’t shopping for anything in particular and she fit right in. good thing we had an agenda otherwise we might still be there…E5762EFA-9A96-4318-B256-A781F459FD10.jpg


the spot has been one of my favorite lunch places in burlington – great menu, easy to get in, and super nice owners – added bonus, we can walk from our house. the spot opened up a lovely “spot on the dock” right on the water and it’s awesome. i will say that putting your name in under the “yelp” app is highly encouraged as they’ve had long lines but worth the wait if you can handle it! again, another spot on the water is an A+ in my mom’s book so we just chilled in the sun while waiting for our table which certainly didn’t make for a bad afternoon.


another place to eat and drink [shocker] that is worthy of mentioning is waterworks, located in the champlain mill along the winooski river. they’ve got a great bar and ambiance if you’re looking for a place to have a girls night but they, also, have really good food.


and, certainly, her trip wouldn’t be complete without the infamous trip to tiny thai where we are most certainly NEVER disappointed. it was such a fun time having her here – we’ll have to do some more exploring the next time she’s back.

oh, and i’ll be sure to keep you posted on the move. as long as i don’t go crazy before then…

three worthy things

monday, woof. it really threw me for a loop today. altering this weeks edition just a hair…

i’m going to start with a belated birthday shoutout to tiffany; 39 never looked so good. 😉 we celebrated by coaching a lacrosse tournament in new york and then with a dinner at the lobby in middlebury. a friend introduced us to her friend’s jewelry brand, otem, which is based out of brooklyn. this is where i found tiffy’s bday gift. seriously, go check them out, because they have beautiful jewelry. IMG_0606.JPG


going off on the jewelry tangent, i can’t help but share this amazing jewelry brand. i’m seriously obsessing over everything they make. especially their choker/collar necklaces. this bracelet is the first item on my wish list. oh, and check out the instagram account, it makes you want things even more.


next up is, ‘the couple next door‘ by shari lapena. holy moly this book is INSANELY good. i literally could not put it down – i bought it sunday and closed it on wednesday night –  and the ending just leaves you wanting more. i’m desperately hoping there’s a second book. here’s a slight recap taken from goodreads:

“You never know what’s happening on the other side of the wall. Your neighbor told you that she didn’t want your six-month-old daughter at the dinner party. Nothing personal, she just couldn’t stand her crying. Your husband said it would be fine. After all, you only live next door. You’ll have the baby monitor and you’ll take it in turns to go back every half hour. Your daughter was sleeping when you checked on her last. But now, as you race up the stairs in your deathly quiet house, your worst fears are realized. She’s gone.
You’ve never had to call the police before. But now they’re in your home, and who knows what they’ll find there. What would you be capable of, when pushed past your limit?”


a couple weekends ago, some friends of mine introduced me to a lawn game called kubb. to be honest, i was not expecting it to be that fun seeing as that it literally is a bunch of blocks and a couple dowels, but, i was pleasantly proved wrong. add a sunny afternoon, a good group of friends and a case of beer and you’ve got yourself an afternoon.

what are your favorite afternoon lawn games?

new year, new blogger.

so i log onto wordpress this morning, and what notification do i see but a ‘happy anniversary with wordpress’ post. i think to myself, “oh my gosh, how cute, can’t believe it’s been two years.” and then i click it….

you guys. it’s been FIVE YEARS. five years has come and gone and what do i have to show for it? a blog that i really love to write, but also a blog that i’m so inconsistent in doing so. a week will come and go and i’ll post a couple times, and yet i’ll let three weeks fly by and not post once. when i started sequins & sneakers i was [wishfully] thinking that it was going to be easy – posting, brainstorm, and writing about cool things – i mean, sounds easy, right? and boy was i wrong. when you don’t dedicate enough time or energy into something, (as hard as it may seem) it won’t just generate out of thin air. SHOCKER, I KNOW. so here i am, ranting about not doing something that i am perfectly capable of doing. i just have to commit and make time for the things i enjoy.


so here i am, feeling like it’s a ‘wordpress new year’. so, happy new year, folks. and as they say… new year, new blogger. with this ‘new year’, i’m going to make a few resolutions. there’s really nothing like airing all your resolutions out in the open for everyone to know because, guaranteed at least one person will ask you about them.

-make a space that’s mine to work in. i want it to feel light and airy, and full of inspiration. here are a few pinterest inspiration desks: this one originally found here. love the natural light from this one, originally found here. i’m obsessed with a crisp white peg board wall like this one, originally found here.

-be more intentional with my posts. start planning for them more – plan topics, plan outfit shoots, plan cocktail making [twist my arm…]. finding a ton of help and motivation from these bad a** babes.

-take better photos and tailor my instagram towards one “vibe” instead of hundreds. you all know what i’m talking about… can’t have ‘light and airy’ but also ‘dark and gloomy’ AND ‘bright and full of color’ in one. it’s like multiple personalities. and i currently have about 5. and i’m working on it, okay?


alright, i’m going to start there. because i could totally keep throwing out resolutions but i need something small and attainable to start with. so with those, i’m going to leave you. i’ll see you in the new year. 😀IMG_0598

life lately in photo

happy sunday, kids!! i hope everyone had a fabulous weekend. as you’re all well aware, i’ve been less than stellar at keeping up with the jones’ [aka sequins & stripes, a cup of jo, the fox & she, or the golden girl]… but i sure have been having a good time. here’s a brief recap:


we made our first maine trip of the summer where we spent the days lounging on the deck, boating over to port clyde for lunch, attempting to play polish horseshoes (HUGE FAIL – the dogs didn’t understand that we weren’t throwing the frisbee for them….], and enjoying the company of great friends. the weekend flew by and before we knew it, it was time to pack up the cars and head home. Processed with VSCO with c1 presetProcessed with VSCO with c1 presetProcessed with VSCO with c1 presetProcessed with VSCO with m5 preset


lake street dive played at the shelburne museum on friday night. it ended up being a gorgeous night for the show – cool and dry. mother nature really treated us to the best weather that night. if you haven’t been to a show there, put it on your bucket list.

we packed a picnic, grabbed some blankets and hunkered down right by the beer tent. 420546AE-577C-48B9-9928-829FECBB8F23.jpgthe funniest part about the whole evening was that jess and i ended up wearing the exact same outfit. and i promise you, we didn’t plan it.

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i couldn’t sit still long enough for a decent photo. sorry, jess. 😀 i promise i’ll do better next time.


saturday night was spent with co-workers and great friends celebrating the graduation of our chief residents. dinner and the award ceremony was held at the davis center followed by drinks and more drinks downtown. we wanted a group photo. this is the only one we took. oops. fullsizeoutput_15b5

and the best part about the whole thing…. it’s a blurry selfie.


we closed out the weekend at ian’s camp in colchester. it really is hard to complain about an afternoon of sunshine and a good book.IMG_0556

speaking of books… i’ve been tearing through them recently and in desperate need of some recommendations! if you know of any good ones, please send them my way!

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a bit of a delay on this ‘week’ of the series… life has been a tiny bit busy and i feel like i’ve finally come up for air. for now….


now that it’s officially june and almost feeling like summer here in vermont [for those of you who, also, live in vermont, you understand] i’m going to introduce you to one of my all time favorite summer essentials – rosé. which, sure sure, everyone knows and loves rosé already but i’m currently obsessing over this one. i’ve had a harder time finding it, but recently had it at a friends house who directed me toward costco to buy some. and that is EXACTLY what happened. it’s relatively cheap, comes in a pretty bottle, and is easy to drink. need i say more?Screen Shot 2017-06-04 at 5.25.31 PM.png


i follow a couple of instagram accounts related to medicine which are some of my favorite accounts to follow. i can spend 20 minutes digging through the posts; some are related to surgeries, or mystery diagnoses while some are before and after pictures of traumas. one of these said accounts directed me to codex anatomy – super cool anatomy prints, for cheap too!! i would love a gallery wall with a couple black and white prints.

and if you head there right now, they’re having a buy one get one free sale!


one of the best gifts i have ever received was “a guide to where the best chefs eat” it literally is exactly what it sounds like. the restaurants are tailored based on location and they’re a great resource when planning a trip! it’s also something fun to flip through to see if you’ve ever been to any of the restaurants!Screen Shot 2017-06-04 at 6.26.39 PM.png


and a little flash back to literally a year ago…. wishing it was as warm as it was then. AND wishing we were all at camp. ❤

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happy sunday, folks.

p.s. i need some feedback on the direction you want these posts to go. aaaaand go.